I had a guy I like for years. From freshman year all the way to my senior year.
He occupied my mind for years and i asked the same question to my friends.."why did i like him?"
Every year went by and I never confessed till the end.
Anyway, he got a girlfriend by his senior year and I thought..
"wow, a great chance for me to finally stop thinking about him.."
I never liked the idea of liking him.. and sometimes I find myself wondering "Do i really like him but if yes,
why?"
And when he got a girlfriend .. I wasn't sure exactly and specifically what I felt when I found out.
I couldn't trace what my true feelings are and so as day goes by I started to think.
By the end of the day, I conclude that.. i didn't like him for him but for his initial personality that
differentiated him from all the other boys I knew at the school at the time.
When he became like hmmmm sort of like a colleague later in the third year?, changes in him started to
occur.. He became a bit more like the other boys and then finally got(I guess) what he ever wanted....
a girlfriend.
When he changed, instead of looking at the present him I was searching for the old him(hahaha..)
His old self still attracted me instead of the new him and yeah I still couldn't forget about him and I knew
why.. its because he was always inside my head for years straight.
Even now I wondered, whether instead of a broken heart, was what i felt was regret?. Regret ever liking him?.
My Lesson,
1.Never ever try to forget something, those memories are a part of me.
2.Thank God I only had a crush no admired him coz Falling in love with a husband is way better.
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